If you grow up in a society which values your achievements as a kid and frowns upon any sort of failure, you probably will develop this lifelong obsession for a public achievement and a fear of public failure. That's why I loved people from Goa. There were quite a few of them in my very first job, and they all seemed extremely self assured, without the kind of pretense of self assurance, that you get if you grow up in a certain city in Maharashtra. They seemed genuinely at ease with themselves. Or maybe it was just me, who thought that they were, and internally they were paddling like those ducks, just trying to stay afloat. But I have seen that a lot with people who come from coastal areas, not coastal cities, just smaller coastal areas. Maybe it's the sea that teaches them to take things easy.
There is a very thin line though between this easy and too easy though. I don't always get myself to respect people, who take a bit too easy. I had no respect for someone like a Vinod Kambli, no sympathy for his so called bad luck. Yet I struggled to empathize with how much pressure Tendulkar put on himself, to live up to his Bharat Ratna status. Often in first impressions, it's hard to judge whether a person understands the consequences of taking it easy and still takes it that way, and a person who just doesn't know stuff. It's hard to comprehend if a person has been - for the lack of a better phrase from the social circles that I grew up in - "good enough" to be on the other side, and yet chooses to remain on this side, and a person who just doesn't even know that other side exists. It tends to be a very Seinfeldish situation, where Kramer, in a weird way, ends up being a sage.
And hence begins the search for that public admiration, which as you grow older, turns into a fear of public failure. It's often hard to do things the way you want because there is this fear that you may do them wrong and then the public, which has been waiting with a bated breath for that one wrong move from you, will execute you. Life is often this struggle between not giving this f**k and still producing results. And then there are times when you hit equilibrium in your mind, but your dear ones pull the rug from under your feet. Maybe life is just a simulation which is designed to not be able to achieve the equilibrium. It's like a game of Vikram and Vetaal.
Well that post did not make much sense.
There is a very thin line though between this easy and too easy though. I don't always get myself to respect people, who take a bit too easy. I had no respect for someone like a Vinod Kambli, no sympathy for his so called bad luck. Yet I struggled to empathize with how much pressure Tendulkar put on himself, to live up to his Bharat Ratna status. Often in first impressions, it's hard to judge whether a person understands the consequences of taking it easy and still takes it that way, and a person who just doesn't know stuff. It's hard to comprehend if a person has been - for the lack of a better phrase from the social circles that I grew up in - "good enough" to be on the other side, and yet chooses to remain on this side, and a person who just doesn't even know that other side exists. It tends to be a very Seinfeldish situation, where Kramer, in a weird way, ends up being a sage.
And hence begins the search for that public admiration, which as you grow older, turns into a fear of public failure. It's often hard to do things the way you want because there is this fear that you may do them wrong and then the public, which has been waiting with a bated breath for that one wrong move from you, will execute you. Life is often this struggle between not giving this f**k and still producing results. And then there are times when you hit equilibrium in your mind, but your dear ones pull the rug from under your feet. Maybe life is just a simulation which is designed to not be able to achieve the equilibrium. It's like a game of Vikram and Vetaal.
Well that post did not make much sense.
